Shut the Front Door!

My last post was a-long-time-ago. Let's see.. where do I begin?

Oh, right, this is how I spent the last few months (especially the holidays) ...




I may or may not have worn my new chaps apron for 3 days straight. #hardcore. 2 snaps in a circle to my sister Cork for the best Christmas gift E.V.E.R.

Moving on ..

Let me break it down for ya like this.. The "debacle of 9/9" rocked me. It rocked all that I believed, hoped for and knew about life. I questioned my Faith, Testimony and my Savior. I had several days, nights and whatevs where I didn't know why I should keep living. It scared me. It was something I have never felt before. You know that deep dark place that you hear about? I was a resident. In fact, I was the R.A. Things that I should have cared about, I didn't anymore. My entire life was obsessed with suicide and wondering why I couldn't have prevented it. Am I lucky to be here now? yup. Does life have new meaning? almost.

How did I get out of it? All of you. I have the most amazing friends and family. I have always been the type of person to hold my friends very close. I am one of those people that thinks keeping in touch with friends is one of the most important things I can do. Then there is Mi Familia. My brothers and sisters are my life! They have held me up, wiped my tears, called even though I was grumpy, took my kids when I was feeling like a maniac. I can't help but think they are my siblings for a reason. We couldn't have gotten through everything if we didn't have each other! #gooniesneversaydie.

In short (shah.. right).. I know that people are put into our lives for a reason. Thank you to my faithful readers. Thanks for your kind words. Thanks for kicking my trash when I am being a dumb -ace. It means more than you know.

So, where am I now? Starting new. Living every day with meaning. Teaching my kids the life lessons that Dad taught me. Being a good neighbor and friend. Helping those that need help. Service. Love. And most importantly, telling those that surround you that you love them as often as you can.

"Some people come in your life as blessings, others come in your lives as lessons."